You talked about the moments of craziness up there, being alone on Life is Lilac - were there also moments of black?
Lilac was the main color, and the rest of the colors were also there but with less intensity. Sometimes it was lilac with black dots, and only during the rappels, the dots were really big.

Describe the "craziness."
When you are alone and in silence for a long time, deep feelings start to appear. Because of the silence, you are able to hear many things. Nothing annoys you.

I don't know where my mind goes. It's just that it goes, but always returns. So that's no craziness.