Conscientious about that last week, I decided to play hard again on the real rock. I visited Vadiello, in the same mountain Range as Rodellar. I like to climb around Huesca; I’m feeling well in those areas. I get many good local friends and there are so many possibilities apart of the famous areas like Rodellar.

So I tried the route called Powerade, a  power-endurance 5.14c route, and not precisely my best climbing style. It’s a 40 move, power-endurance route -- a link up between NOWA (5.14b) and the bouldery finish of a 5.13d route on the right. When I always casually go there I get involved in the same curious situation. The thing is that three years ago I sent NOWA, and each time I try POWERADE I have to repeat almost the whole route before joining with the 5.13d route. 

First of all, I feel pressure because my mind thinks What if I fall in the 5.14b part? Second involuntary: once I climb a route, I don’t have the same motivation to repeat it. So these circumstances don’t allow me to stay motivated about that specific route. This situation is what I live with each time I try that route. 

Anyway I know deep in my heart that if I wanted to have success and as we say in Spanish words: tengo que coger el Toro por los cuernos("I have to hold the bull from the bows”. Which means that first I have to be focused and motivated for that route if I ever would like to climb it. My mind is arguing: maybe I need to kidnap my heart from the mountains...